Making a Start
Give yourself permission to explore, inquire and have fun.
Most of all, let yourself play, to allow the process to show you the way, to find what you like, with so many new possibilities.
While I have had a time away from painting I’m desperate to get back. I have all my old processes that have served me well, but now feel like I need to push and move forward into something new. In part it feels fresh and exciting and different and on the other, awkward, difficult and overwhelming. What I like about this exploration is just to notice bits I like and also maybe what I don’t. What I am aware of is being present in the fun of just feeling the joy, the immediate energy of creating, without the pressure of making something good. Right now it’s not going so well as I would have liked, but that’s ok because you can only move forward with that, getting better.
Interestingly I find myself back on that journey, desiring to paint trees, wanting and not succeeding. Back to the beginning of our first lockdown in 2020, at the start of this worldwide pandemic, I wanted to paint tree’s. Now the desire has come back, but I’m too quick to swipe it all out. Will it remain in the layers beneath or will I find my way, up until now I’ve been too quick to give up and move on, unless that is exactly what it is, my starting point to something else, as I revisit that place.
my story of play in pictures.
What I notice is that I am desperate for a hard raw scribble, but I also like the opposite soft, purposeful shapes, connecting, like within a map or diagram.
Yes it’s a mess, but it is also a start, a start in finding my way, to where I want to be, which at the moment I have no idea of, but I trust it will come while I’m busy, creating, and not thinking, just stepping in to flow.
